Its with me or murphy’s law to blame!

Since last 5 days i was planning to make cake OK somehow it got delayed but yes today i have no other commitments so i will make it for sure, i went to kitchen and collected all the required ingredients so they are well at room temperature and when i start making cake after lunch and all other chores are finished whats there in my bag???? no electricity whooop!!!!!!!! lights have gone when will they come back dont know.

electricity was never a problem since last one week only when i started making cake who told hem, or was there some one who wants to trouble me ufff!!!!

I wanted to go shopping for few important things but was getting delayed for some reasons today after 15 days when i made up my mind and went to market again to my surprise the shop is closed the neighbor shopkeepers told he went one hour before for 2 days to attend a marriage oh ho not again. why i am always the one to get caught.

you plan a picnic with family but exactly the day before picnic your kid will have loosies which can result to diaper rash so the result is I wont be able to go.

does it ever happen to others or its always with me only. what to call it murphy’s law or bad luck.
whatever!!!!!

 

A different lookout

 

 

 

I am recently giving time to myself, although not much but yes little, actually myself a very lazy person on fitness and good looks for me more important thing is to read and finish the book, I cant sit in parlor to beautify myself nor can I visit spas give me choice I will pick a good book and hide myself in corner so I can finish it off as soon as I can.

 

but lately thanks to a Doctor neighbor cum friend coz of kids in same school I am taking walks. and i am amazed to see i am actually enjoying them. i have started feeling toned up, i am glowing without any facials, i am looking more fit and fine. and while walking i realized that i am living in such beautiful surrounding that if i am not walking i am doing injustice to the place. yes u must be surprised whats so in place well i live near serene beauty and open surroundings in this time of closed apartments and no greenery. i am surprised why i never saw the beautiful side of the locality. the green trees endless trees which in cities you can’t see in plenty, different kinds of birds and animals around me, no i am not joking I can see kingfishers, i was shocked to search about this place that it is The Bird Watchers Paradise.

• Imperial Eagle,
• Indian Pond Hero,
• Indian Robin,
• Purple Moorhen ,
• Common Crane,
• Demoisele Crane,
• Pintail,
• Painted Stork,
• Shoveler,
• Wigeon Duck,

and many more whose name i don’t even remember are seen around me and I never saw them. not only this also

• Peacocks
• Blue Bulls 
• Jackal
• Wolf
• Jungle cat
• Mongoose
• Rabbits
• Cobra, etc

are my neighbors or say live near me.

thanks to walks that help me explore myself in fitness and my surrounding in natural beauty.

 

 

 

 

kids amaze always

there are lot of incidents i know we share with our kids but ever thought of writing them and then reading them to enjoy them again and again. i thought of doing it and so is the endless list of activities.

• when he started talking use to call water “amma” did i teach him no ways…….
• is always confused about he then his father then grandfather and mother. wen i call my mom “aai” he says why u say so only i will call u “aai” u should not say it to anyone else its not for sharing.
• for him the eldest in house is his dad…….guess why coz of his height not age ok
• i was teaching him living and non living the first question after giving him lots of examples was what is blood – living or nonliving? i was surprised leaving all the things around him what made him think of this.
• if i scold him by saying i will tell your mam…..he replies i will tell your mam i remember ur school name will search on net and call her, uff kids i tell u, genius.
• these days he is amused with ATM machine, well i m explaining him but lets see what is his feedback…
• now he is 4 and operates my touchscreen mobile like he is a pro, wants to see all songs on it, so i have loaded only his nursery rhymes smart mom i am haha
• Life is so simple for kids isn’t it. I wish it was as simple as it seem to them……………..

 

Not so lucky

Lately i don’t know why nothing is happening as i want it to be, things are totally opposite of expected. I am getting irritated as you have to always solve the problems in front and things are just not under control.

Still being  a woman, i have to keep up with everything also i have 4 kids at home yes……….2 small 2 big(elders) and hubby not around official travel u see….

so beginning from morning something is there for me to create problem, either my kid will refuse to go to school for no good reason, or i will get an urgent call to reach for some social work responsibility and then i have to leave all personal tasks for that…..on top of i broke my car as i am feeling low. again an elder at home is hospitalized for unidentified prob so more tests and all that. i am like feeling why on earth things trouble single women. hubby only talks on phone or sms well that’s soothing but practically only i have to run and things are not in control.

if i talk to some friend they start delivering lectures on positive thinking and few will even ask me to do yoga, tell me where to do? in hospital or while running here and there for different tasks.

i will add i feel it may be also SAD there’s something called seasonal affective disorder, is it bcoz of that i am feeling low and things are not in [proper coordination or its me who is incapable? don’t know don’t have time to think see just now maid also called and to my fear she is going for 10 day holiday as some sad demise at her place too…..ufff

so i have to be maid too, baby sitter, care taker and other endless duties. i never fear from work but would enjoy doing all if thing are in well coordination atleast for me. Oh god till when testing times will continue?

 

Monsoons!!!!!! to love or to hate

yes its monsoon time again

rains, water, rainbows, romance, wetness, song, 

so there are “n” number of reasons one loves rain or say this season….

people i have met are always crazy when they think of rainy season…

 

romance is all related to this mausam or climate…

 

but but but….. there is always an exception isnt it????

i personally hate rains

WHY

lot of reasons so thought i will write about them

 

i think rains or rainy season is good only if you are looking at it from your window or balcony….once you get down or put your foot on ground the definition changes.

• Its all wet
• Its muddy, dirty, filthy
• With kids they have all kinds of stains on there dress which don’t go by any detergent, brush scrub it only spoils the cloth.
• Its smelly and sweaty
• If more people come together at one place in this season its all smelly
• Clothes don’t dry even if you keep them under fan after drying in washing machine, and one has to wash clothes daily so its heaps of clothes on clothes line and everywhere in house.
• Viral infections, sneezing, jaundice, all these happen in rainy season only. OPD of clinics and hospitals is crowded these days.
• Traffic jams
• Water clogging, seepage, leakage all this are at high.
• Even rikshaw wala are not ready to leave you to destinations or else they charge whatever they want.
• Buses trains are late

 

All in all i like to see the droplets on windowpane but ahead of it is difficulty in driving too.

I like the smell of soil after rain but then it will all convert into quagmire, puddle, mud.

I will say monsoons are good to see in TV only or only if u see and enjoy it from your window. i know its important for crops to rain, its required for earth to have water levels maintained through rains. I just cant stand the after effects of rain. otherwise rains are beautiful as they are one of the natural resources of earth.

 

 

self love

ha ha  i know reading this title and imagining what must have written in it amused me. yes but its true i am in self love these days. after few successful years of marriage, 2 kids i have started to fall in love with myself once again. may be the beauty of motherhood is seen on my face which i have realized lately.

yes motherhood is beautiful and looking ur kids grow in front of you who are your own flesh and blood it make me feel proud and so i fall for me. its ages i felt i have seen myself properly in a mirror as kids never give you so much time to look and spend time in front of mirror, but yesterday only when i found a lil time and i was standing in front of mirror i really gave it  a thought and yes i was looking more beautiful than ever thanks to my kids.

so salute the motherhood that made me look more charming and more fresh after running after kids and staying on toes whole day. my treadmill kind of schedules have somewhere enhanced my looks.

well its how you look at urself if u feel u look good yes you do look good and you are the most beautiful person on earth as you are one of the god’s creation which is made to order as there is only one you not like two or more like you.

so keep loving yourself and enjoy.

 

self love

ha ha  i know reading this title and imagining what must have written in it amused me. yes but its true i am in self love these days. after few successful years of marriage, 2 kids i have started to fall in love with myself once again. may be the beauty of motherhood is seen on my face which i have realized lately.

yes motherhood is beautiful and looking ur kids grow in front of you who are your own flesh and blood it make me feel proud and so i fall for me. its ages i felt i have seen myself properly in a mirror as kids never give you so much time to look and spend time in front of mirror, but yesterday only when i found a lil time and i was standing in front of mirror i really gave it  a thought and yes i was looking more beautiful than ever thanks to my kids.

so salute the motherhood that made me look more charming and more fresh after running after kids and staying on toes whole day. my treadmill kind of schedules have somewhere enhanced my looks.

well its how you look at urself if u feel u look good yes you do look good and you are the most beautiful person on earth as you are one of the god’s creation which is made to order as there is only one you not like two or more likle you.

so keep loving yourself and enjoy.

 

books books books

Going to library is something which refreshes me like any best of the perfume can do to someone.

i went to library today after 6 months as after my second kid i was not able to give time to reading and there i was totally lost. which book to pick and which to leave. it was hard and i was in pool of letters i wanted to stay there only. so i picked up a recent purchase of library and came out. wanna finish the book so i can again go bk and fulfill my urge that was left behind last few months.

 

as i said after 6 months i was reading a book i was suggested to buy a tab or kindle to read but then i gave a thought…….can book be ever compared to electronic gadget?

 

going to library and searching for book is some kind of beautiful feeling getting lost in pool of books wow…. is it possible in kindle store????no no no.

if really want to save paper better plant a tree, but books are must and nothing can be compared to them.

for me kindle instead of book is like eating spirulina capsule instead of hot stuffed mouthwatering paratha.

 

the feel the smell the touch of book is something we can never get in electronic gadgets. the envy feel or jealous feel to see others books, the feel on others face when they see or book all this will be missing if all will carry gadgets only like laptops, tabs, kindle, eBook with them.

 

putting book marks or dog earing books are some things that will be missed a lot. so books are only books and nothing to beat them nothing to replace them. when you see a book they come in different sizes, different covers, different width, different looks, pages, can this be available in kindle or tab? not at all. tab or ebook have a standard size so when it comes to books, size does matter, looks do matter.

 

for sure a live book is something no electronic gadget can ever beat. i can read book on table, lying down, sitting, in bus, in train, plane, waiting line, queues, while eating, but its not always possible with kindle, as there is fear of it getting dropped or battery discharge. also the feel of beautiful bookmarks which i make for myself where will i mark them in kindle???no way.

sharing of personal collection is like sharing your diamond ring so a big no no will i share my kindle ever will you????????? a big no.

 

jab we met

My experience of our meeting

 

Almost after a 1 year of online interaction we met. It was a short and sweet meeting that helped us bond stronger.

Almost a year ago I had a message from a newly made friend, checking why there are no updates from me. We had barely known each other, so I couldn’t consider her to be my friend either. Her concern triggered my interrogations. Who are you?  Why you want to know about me? Which place you live? How all this happened and lots and lots of queries.

It all started a year ago when a friend or I don’t know whether its right to call her friend that time as we barely knew each other, so she said there are no updates from my said then started my interrogations on who are you, why you want to know about me, what will you get from this, which place you live, how all this happened and a lot lot lot queries.

She answered all my queries calmly and what I found in each chat session and mails that our wavelength was the same. As we continued to talk I was surprised to know that we understood each other and that we both had got habitual to each other.

We were keen to meet so we can see each other as we were net friends. Finally God helped us meet. She had some work in Ahmadabad and I was passing the same station that same day. Although that involved a bit of waiting for her, for around 1 hr.

I was looking out of train window, as train was approaching Ahmadabad station. I got up from my seat, holding my younger kid in my arm and elder one ahead of me. I reached the door of train, it was slowing down, few passengers were standing inline. They asked me do I want to get down? As I had 2 kids they asked with consideration. I replied yes! I told them that I have to meet someone and reach back in this train so they showed a sweet gesture by saying that in that case you should get down first we will go afterwards. I was too excited.

Train hit platform and started moving slowly, I was looking at each face on the platform. Although I had seen lot of her pics but yet I had doubt whether I will recognize her? After say 1 min I saw a lady talking on phone sitting on a bench. My train was still slowly moving and there that was her, how can I miss it or it’s not possible that I was mistaken, yes she was her.

After another 30 sec my train stopped I rushed down on platform and started moving in her direction, but she was also moving in the same direction, it means we were losing time ….aaaahhhhh that was bad, I shouted Ishaaaaaaaaaa………. But in hustle bustle of train she couldn’t hear me…I increased my speed and suddenly she stopped, she had heard me. I again shouted so she could locate me and we waved hands. I turned around and hoped she understood that I wanted her to follow me to my coach as I had 2 kids and I couldn’t miss the train either. That’s how I reached my coach and so did she, all this happened in span of 50 sec, and finally WE MET.

I hugged her and said “finally we got to see each other”. It was funny, good, beyond explanation. I felt as if I had met a long lost childhood friend and completely forgot that it was our first meeting.

It was truly memorable 15 mins. Till then we had interacted lot with each other online. We didn’t realize that we were meeting for the first time. My elder son was excited to give her a strawberry as a gift for her son. To his bad luck the strawberry fell and he couldn’t give it to her. Soon my husband too joined me and they greeted each other. He left us after introduction and exchange of few words, as he understood that we wanted space. All I want to say is Thankx to my husband.

 After 15 mins my train got green signal and it was time for us to depart.

It was a wonderful meet but we had to move on as we both had commitments to fulfill.

 

 

 

chaotic silence

Its silence all around me, but my mind is making noises.

Noises that cant be heard outside,

but my mind is like a market where every thought is bargaining,

every thought wants it to be on priority,

whom should i give importance….

blank …..cant think anymore

But i want peace of mind

where can i find

I am restless so is my mind and soul

I want to do what i had never done before

But my mind is not ready for this change

This way my life is just letting go by and i can’t hold

I need that extra support

The extra attention i need

I want u to listen to me

Can u lend me your ear

Can I ask you for some time

so we can put my mind to rest

Its been walking and running

since days and years

I now need the stable mind

where I can think again but now in total peace

Peace in and out